Thursday, December 9, 2010

Say Yes to the Dress

Aaaaaah! I scream at the stressful process in choosing that one perfect dress. It can never be too easy for a bride.  The dress defines the beauty of the bride. It is a reflection of who she is as she gives herself to her husband on that special, magical day. The dress is the first thing he sees when she walks down the aisle. So, that my fellow readers, is why the dress is CRUCIAL to a bride. The first look is always a memorable one! Ladies...you know its all about the dress! lol. You want to experience that "wow factor" when walking down that aisle. Have all eyes on you, especially the grooms! lol. 

Choosing my wedding dress wasn't as easy as I thought. I had to pick a dress that would be of complimentary to me and one that will work with my overall wedding theme. For this reason, it was narrowed down to a few styles. I want my dress to symbolize who I am. I want my dress to be me! And because I am the one financing it, I had to make sure it was within my budget which made the process even more strenuous.

I had to make sure the fit of my dress is perfect for my body type! The fit of your gown is essential! And because I still have some post pregnancy weight I want to lose, it didn't help or make it any easier to finding my perfect wedding gown! I still have 10 lbs to go! I am determine to lose it all after the holidays! I would be lying to you if I told you I was going to start now! lol.

After browsing through the internet and talking to different wedding stylists, I found my dress! It was the first one I chose and tried on! It was soooo me! Because Ryan and I are already married and are not your average traditional couple, I showed it to him! Yeah I know....I know....but I needed his approval! His opinion means the world to me! And he loved it! I know whatever I said up there, totally contradicts what I just did but he didn't see me all glammed up and it wasn't in the moment so the feeling will still be different from the day he will see me walking down the aisle. I don't want to give too much away! But, its definitely not a "cupcake dress" (Funny huh? I got that saying from my cousin Pwee lol). If I chose a dress in that style, I will not only be sweating like crazy but I'd probably black out before I even get a chance to walk down the aisle! Waikiki gets hot! lol! (Plus, I don't want anyone passing out and losing conscious at this wedding hehehe). Back to the good news, I said yes to the dress! Now, I just need to get my shoes and accessories. I'm hoping the few Christmas gift exchanges I have this year will take care of that! lol.

Simple right? That was easy! Wrong! Why am I still looking at wedding dresses and talking to wedding stylist!?!? Not that I'm having second thoughts, but because I bought the first dress I tried on, I was curious to see how other dresses would look on me. Bad huh?!?

A few days ago, I took Ryan and Natalie with me to Santana Row and Westfield Vally Fair Mall in San Jose. We had no intentions to look at wedding gowns! Well, he didn't. lol. I knew there was a Priscilla of Boston Boutique in Santana Row and I just wanted to window shop. I know...Im so bad! lol. But after trying on a few dresses, I still loved mine! Funny how that all worked out! So, after all that is said and done...I'm sticking to my dress!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Bittersweet November

"Sweet November" is what I say when I think of the month of November. November is the month of both my older sis and younger bro birthdays and not to mention Thanksgiving and Black Friday! But since Ryan and I got back together again in 2006...November has never been the same...for me that is...
When November comes around. I get sad. Why? I think about my brother-in-law. My brother-in-law passed away 5 years ago coming this November 27. I tear every time I think about him. Why? I miss him. I miss what we could have been if he was still here.  
I don't have a lot of memories of him. So, the few that I do have, I will cherish them forever. 
I must of told this story a million times...This is one of the sweetest memories I have of my brother-in-law I will never forget and because every time I think about this memory I have of him, I smile. It brings joy to my heart. 
The first time I met Joel was back in 2003. Ryan and I just started dating and he brought me over to his house to meet his brothers and cousins. I still remember walking up those stairs to see a small dining table area which is now where the stove & oven is. A big wall that divided the kitchen from the living room that has now been torn down, completely transformed and made in to a beautiful granite kitchen counter. I was overwhelmed with the many faces I saw that night. Ryan has a lot of brothers and cousins. lol. I remember Loreena (cousin-in-law) still had her braces and Brandon (my youngest brother-in-law) chubby cute round face. There was one brother who I didn't get to meet...(Ryan was calling his name but he was nowhere to be found). It was getting late and time for me to leave so I went in the car. I wasn't in there for more than a few minutes when someone knocked at the window, open the door, shook my hand and said "Hi my name is Joel. I'm Ryan's brother. Nice to meet you." I've never had anyone who've I've yet to meet go out of their way to greet me. I thought it was the sweetest thing. It was nice. It was warm. It was genuine. It was comforting. I felt special (blushing with big smile).
 When Ryan lived in an apartment with his cousin. He was always the one to open the door and greet me when I walked in. We never talked much because Ryan always wanted my undeviated attention. Hehehe. 
I miss him. Ryan misses him. We all miss him.
I wish he was here...I wish Natalie could meet him...
When November comes around...Ryan's not the same. I sense some sadness and I can see he just isn't his usual happy self. When I ask if there's something wrong he says nothing but I know my husband. I know he misses his brother. He doesn't even have to say it, I just know it. 
Ryan is the guy who you never see cry or get emotional. He's what you call a robot. You seldom see him get mad or speak negative about anything. That's one of the things I love about him...he's carefree, optimistic and positive. But in spite of it all, he hurts and one thing I know for sure is...he's hurt that his brother is not here.
This past month...We've haven't had the best nights. (MIL if you are reading this PLEASE don't mention this to him or my butt will be in BIG HUGE trouble). But I have to get this off my chest...He's been smoking...Yes! SMOKING! We've been getting in to small arguments about his smoking because he NEVER smokes. I've noticed a pattern since 2006 every time November comes around, he smokes. I thought about it over and over. Why November?!?!?! When I finally realized...Could there be a connection between November (his brother's month of death) and his smoking (only in November)? When I ask him "Why are you smoking?" He gets defensive and says he's stress. Stress about what?!? Like I mention earlier...my husband is never stressed. Never. I stress for the both of us. That's when I knew it was about his brother...
After a sleepless night, thinking of possible reasons why he feels the need to smoke...I came to an understanding he needs that time to himself. A moment for his brother. So I'm letting go...


Hoping and praying his smoking doesn't become a habit or an addiction. 

Monday, November 8, 2010

Spiderman & Buzz Lightyear Party

Last Saturday, my mother-in-law and I hosted a party for her grandsons/my nephews birthdays. It was super fun! Lots of goodies and jumping! =) It was a spiderman and buzz lightyear party! 
The birthday boys look so happy! Mission accomplished! =)

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Halloween

I admit I never was a fan of Halloween. As a matter of fact, I hated it. I didn't like the idea of dressing up in a costume and asking for candy from strangers. I stopped going trick or treating when I was in 6th grade. But, because of my dislike for this holiday, I wasn't going to bring down Natalie's spirits. Even though, I know she probably doesn't have a clue what Halloween is at 15 months, I'm hoping she likes it more than me. Hehehe.
The day before Halloween, we attended a 13th birthday/Halloween party. I was hesitant at first to dress her in costume because right when we got there she puked! I was afraid she would have another "puke alert" if I dressed her too soon. So, we waited. 
(Photos taken by my MIL)
Everyone was in costume, soon after when I knew it would be clear....Ryan and I got her ready....Here is the ballerina! =) After seeing her in a leotard, I was sure and convinced I should enroll her in a toddler ballet class in the future.
Before we went home, we changed her into her pj's because I wanted to conserve the costume and use it for Halloween. But, right when I was taking it off...I saw runs in her tights and her leg warmers weren't white anymore. They were more like brown. Not to mention, the leotard. It was stretched like crazy from taking it off. I thought "Oh my! Will I have time to wash it? Or should I just buy another costume?" Decisions. Decisions. The next morning my Auntie Myrna called and told me she bought Natalie a costume. I was excited. I asked her of what? And she said a peacock! A peacock?!?!?!?! Hmmmmm....I don't know....A peacock?!?!?!?! Is it cute???? lol. She said yeah its very cute! I had to call my sister for a second opinion. lol. She said it was cute enough for her to wear to go trick or treating plus the ballerina costume would be too cold for her to wear at night. I agreed! We got home from my in-laws to find this peacock costume....
Did I mention a dragon too! lol. He was waiting for Natalie to get home...he's a sweetheart!
Surprisingly, our neighborhood was a hit! We got lots of candy in a span of 35 minutes and in a 2 block radius. They gave out handfuls of candy to Natalie and Max. Maybe because we were told by some neighbors we were the first to arrive and it helped that they looked adorable too! lol. We had to start early to finish early! The Daddies wanted to get home before the 7th inning of the Giants game. Could you blame them? Its the world series for crying out loud and the Giants are playing in it!!! I was proud of both my hubs and BIL for taking the kids out. I know it was hard to leave but they did it! We had a great time! Because of Natalie....I love Halloween! 
Natalie had so much fun! She didn't want to let go of her bumble bee bag.  She was so good. We didn't hear her cry or whine the whole time. I think she liked the idea of strangers giving her something and putting it in her bag unlike me. lol. When we got home, she started digging in her bag and eating candy by opening the wrapper with her teeth. She loves candy. She got in trouble twice for eating candy without our permission. We caught her biting a lollipop and a kitkat bar the next morning. Her Daddy put her in timeout. lol. Overall, we had the perfect Halloween! Lots of candy and a win for the Giants!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Trick or Treat

Last week, I had the pleasure of making my mother-in-law's halloween buckets for her daycare kids. I love it when she gives me fun projects to do. I am fortunate to have a mother-in-law who trusts me in everything I do! I love to make all things pretty!